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Created on 2007-07-31 08:50:48 (#13494128), last updated 2007-09-05
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Basic Info| Name: | braishfield |
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| Birthdate: | 1989 |
BioAbout my self I am to sure, I have lost myself, I hid who I really was to fit in bottled up my real feelings. I have suffered a lot to lead be to be like this, my mother died when I was 12, this lead me to binge eat and over eat, I hid my emotions and didnt do any thing, I sat all day my mind was never there, sitting watching tv, on teh computer or just sitting stairing, my mindf was never there! I rapidly gained weight to cover me feelings. Over time I overcame things, its what I do work things out in my mind. I have people to talk to almost too many but I cant I have to over come things in my mind talking may help some people however it does't change anything I can't cope with people going "How are you today" in a patronising manner, I just need time and space. However recently my father has been diagnosed with cancer and five years after my mother. I know look at myself with discust, I have what I did to myself, eating my feeling. THis time I have gone the other way, sick with worry I won't eat. I don't want to. I love the feeling of starving. However with my rooking life, its hard to stay away from food for long, I feel bad for eating which hurts me the most! When I starve and loose weight I feel normal, myself!
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