braishfield

Ok so today I have decided to start my liquid diet, and only drunk, cranberry juice, water or diet coke.  This has resulted in my weight incresing, I am putting it down to the volume of water that I drank and That I could not get out of the house. 

Ok so I joined up to this site but have not been here!  I am now back from my holidays and felt so ashamed at myself that I ate so much, My family wouldn't let me get away with miss one meal!! 
I am so fat, seeing all thoes skinny people on the beach has made me more determined than ever!! This last week has been good how ever as I have managed to skip all meals and live on a liquid diet.  I slipped up today and yesterday and had a small bowl of ice cream with friends but then they were suspecting so gave them the basis that I was eating!!

I am lost, I hate the way that I feel. At the moment I am babysitting my younger Brother and sister.  This drives me crazy as all they do is eat.  I have issues at  home and Alway bottle things  up this is my place to talk, I don't care that people may not listen but I want to say what I am feeling.  MY feeling change so regularly wheather I like some one or not, what poeples oppions are of me sometime bother me and some times not!! If anyone wants to talk I wall always be happy to!! My laptop is being fixed at the moment so am not on teh computer as regularly as normal but hopefully not for long!!
Email me  about anything, your life, music or anything, and I will always get back to you even if it does take time, and I may take time while I get adjusted to this system!!!